Goals and shit.

Ok so I’m sitting at work – and I’m blogging. Not really. What I’m really doing is just typing – later I will put it on the blog, but I can’t log into the blog here. Not unless I want the bosses to potentially read it. This wouldn’t necessarily be terribly bad, except that later I talk about quiting my job. That’s right; I already know where this blog is going. I’ve had it planned for weeks, and my lazy bum has just now figured out a way to fit this into my oh-so-busy schedule. I definitely hope you can see the sarcasm there. In reality, I’ve been working, hanging out with Todd and doing the bare minimum of anything else.

(Why do they make the plastic and aluminum covering on yogurt and fruit cups adhere sooo tightly that you squirt the juice on yourself when you open it? For convenience food, it’s definitely not very convenient. I’m gonna send that Dyson guy a letter and see if he’s done with the vacuum cleaner and fan and can help the Dole with this problem.)

So I said I’ve been planning this blog weeks in advance and I have… in fact, I wrote up an outline! (Cassie is so OCD… how OCD is she, you ask? Well, this morning – she hung her laundry on the line… so far so good…. and tried to group similar colors together! OCD.) So here it is … my last blog promised goals or choices or a bucket list tone. I think I’ve accomplished all these.

First, now that I’m 30(!) I have to take better care of my health.
• Physical activity every day. Even fishing counts or doing chores (Ah! 2 birds, meet my 1 stone!) It doesn’t have to be P90X, although… I did buy all those DVDs…
• More Salads, less breads. Ouch, that hurts to even say. This morning I had toast, bread at lunch and you can be guaranteed that this girl is gonna eat bread when she gets off work. This may be the hardest goal. I need to learn how to make truly delicious salads, like Chili’s Quesadilla Explosion!
• Cut out coke- 1 a week. I’ve already pretty much accomplished this – I’ve been drinking lots of tea, since caffeine isn’t the problem, it’s the sugar. I love you almost as much as bread, Coke.

Second goal is equally serious – my finances.
• Yuck. First I have to admit that I have lost control. I don’t do paperwork, I don’t balance my checkbook, I don’t write anything done. The truth is I don’t want to know. I have to get over that….starting next bank statement.
• One great idea I got when I was thinking about my finances was a travel account. I want to save and save – and probably use my tax refunds to start a travel account and I want to spend it all every year. (See ADVENTURE section)
• I need to focus on my student loans. I say that when I am in a job with little to no discretionary income and I still want to have some fun.

This brings us to 3rd goal: career.
• Is it time to get back in the game? I say this with a question mark. I have been working, but they have been jobs that I could get with a high school diploma. And I’m not trying to sound the least bit snobbish…but… (toot, toot) I have a lot more education to use (and pay off). If I don’t get back in the game, what will I do? I guess (toot, toot, toot) I think I’m pretty smart and personable and probably need to find a job that is more – more than just a job? Maybe. Definitely more that what I have now. I’ve applied for a couple of jobs in Manhattan, KS. I am hopeful.
• If I’m not going to go corporate, I need to figure something out. All I’m doing right now, both financial and professionally, is slowly drowning. I make it month to month barely. Ugh. This is unpleasant to think about and even more unpleasant to admit. Don’t judge me too harshly.

Goals pertaining to the home:
• I need to finish my projects. Do you know that the bathroom floor is only 90% scraped because it got hard? Well, I’m not going to finish it right now because it’s too hot. But I really should someday.
• I also need to be better about chores. If I do just one chore a day, or part of a chore even, then there wouldn’t be a Hell day after two weeks of avoiding anything even resembling a chore. (Mom, I know you’ve been telling me that for years, but please don’t rub it in!)

ADVENTURE section (This is my second favorite!)
• I want to be a ‘Yes’-girl… to a degree. I want to do almost anything I can do. I wish I could’ve been a Warrior Dasher.
• Start doing things from that bucket list! Skydive? Bungee? Eskimo kiss?
Almost anything is possible (if I get off the couch, eat more salads and start that travel fund.) I know one thing for sure – both hammocks have been lost to poor maintenance and weather. I need to replace my hammock. (Although… then that’s one more thing I have to get off of before the ADVENTURE begins!)

Personal and family goals are, by far, my most important.
• I want to blog, email, call and basically communicate more in general. I hardly ever actually speak to you guys in Georgia or any friends in Colorado. Everything has been boiled down to Facebook. That’s one reason why I wanted to get back to blogging. Even though it’s one extra step to tell a story – I can tell the full story, not just “What’s on my mind?”
• I want to rekindle my hobbies. I want to practice guitar. I know I will never be
great, but it’s cool and relaxing. Making cards, walking my dogs, camping, going to the lake. Make my bunnies make babies, dammit! I really enjoy all these things and I get bogged down, or stuck on the couch and I don’t do them. I don’t have to do them all everyday or even every week. But wouldn’t it be nice to get a homemade card from me?  Everyone loves mail!

I guess that’s it. Ha. I feel like I’m 30, I should have my life in more order. I don’t have a lousy boyfriend or husband holding me back. I have a great support structure right now… I have to be brave. So now you’ve seen my goals. Help hold me to them. Haven’t heard from me in awhile? Drop me a real live email. Have an adventure? Ask me and see if I don’t join ya. Want to pay off my student loans? Feel free.

Love.

PS. Just reread this blog. More overwhelmed than ever. Should’ve left it in outline form. Can’t wait to go home, eat bread and lay on the couch.