I have left Abilene for Kansas City. I literally cried for the 1st hour of my drive. I think I was mourning (and continue to mourn) my entire life. A life where I can walk to my mom's house, where I can walk to a neighbor who would literally help me with anything. A life where my boyfriend is right there all the time. I know, I know - he will join me eventually, but right now, I am lonely. I am mourning a life where I can babysit one of my nieces almost anytime I want. I miss my dogs. I know - they will join me soon, too. I am mourning some true friends. I have been through that almost every move I've made and time always helps this, but, in a way, I don't want time to help that. It seems like with every move, I leave behind great people and over time I lose touch with them because we 'get used to it'. I don't want to get used to it. I want to miss them forever because I don't want to lose touch with them like I have most of the other great people I've left. Stupid? Maybe. I am mourning an easy life, with little traffic and fields, and horses and easy parks. I miss the ease.
I miss everything.
I can fix this if I hate it. This is not South Korea. I just have to make it for 4 more days and then I go back to the ease for the weekend. Then I have to make it 5 more days, then a couple of things will be easier. My boyfriend will be here, my dogs will be here and I will not have to deal with creeps in a pay-by-the-week hotel.
4 more days.
2 comments:
I feel for you, Todd, Sky, Cari, Baby, Beppo, Ashes and ME! But it is a good opportunity and a chance to see another place and meet new people (weirdo and not-so, included.) Wish it were here - but alas - it is closer :). DaMom
1.5 more days. The first part is always the hardest. You will look back on this when you're all settled and think about how you were worried, but everything turned out ok. You will always have your family to return to. Thinking of you every day. <3
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